Δαφνη Ευτυχια Αρθουρος

As I was getting ready for dance practice last night my body abruptly informed me that I was going to lie down instead. I set an alarm for half an hour later, hoping I could just show up late, but no dice -- I slept pretty solidly until close to midnight, then less soundly until 05:30, after which I was sortakinda awake until about 07:30 when I became really awake but aware that I was too tired to get out of bed to do anything about my empty stomach or my full bladder or the severe pain in my shoulder. Finally made it out of bed about midday.

Still didn't feel great, and the cold was bothering me more than it usually does, so I got back into bed to watch some shows taped over the last couple of days and write in my paper diary. Finally decided that I Really Needed To Eat Something, so I went downstairs, cranked up the thermostat, and made some oatmeal. Burning oil for half an hour does warm the place up quite impressively (I turned the thermostat back down after that -- the house should hold the heat until I leave for band practice). I'm still feeling a little spacy and various parts hurt, but I'm out of bed and trying to do stuff on the computer. (My attention span isn't great -- I probably won't bill 100% of the time I've spent on work today because I'm less than 100% effective and I feel guilty when that happens.) The warmth does help.

I'm having "stubbornness about drugs" issues again, and only just recognized that. Unfortunately this time it's further complicated by financial concerns -- not only do I not want to have to take them, I'm worried about running out and not being able to afford more. Okay, the Vicodin is fairly cheap, but all of the others cost more than my (recently very expensive) copay. And at the moment I don't even have enough in my bank account to pay for Vicodin. (I do have that much cash at the moment, if I don't buy groceries.)

What with my mom making monthly payments on the house and her having given me a bunch of money these past few months and Christmas just having ended and her having given me money for Christmas, along with the tension that arose from my being honest with my cousins about who/what I am, I don't really want to lean on her for more money so soon, and I'm not really sure how much she can afford to give me right now. Gee, is it time to play the Money Stress Game again already? I guess so.

Anyhow, this was supposed to be a really short post about how last night failed to go, while waiting for a work-related web page to download, but I guess I had more I needed to vent than that.

I need to figure out how to pay my phone bill, electric bill, and two months of HMO premiums (I got behind -- they're about to cancel me).