Last night I slept extremely poorly. I had eaten a banana and
taken my magnesium tablets before bed, but this was still one of
those nights where my legs woke up about every half hour. Then I
had something to do this morning earlier than I'm usually up. So
I'm a little tired.
But after running various errands (which took longer than planned,
partly because one step just took longer, but mostly because I had
unscheduled but very enjoyable conversations with cool folks), I'm
home again, trying to decide whether to tackle the other things on
my to-do list that I have to go elsewhere for, or declare it the
start of the holiday.
I came home and was greeted by Perrine, who shortly thereafter
went and curled up on one of the chairs under the kitchen table.
I checked my mail, realized I was very hungry, and went into the
kitchen to make pancakes. And I noticed that the house seemed
unusually quiet. A quiet of the serene sort. It feels like a
snow day (we had light rain when I went out, heavy rain while I
was out, and we're back to light rain for the moment ... it's not
anywhere near cold enough for snow). That blanket of calm that
descends when snow muffles everything? I'm feeling and hearing
that on this warm and rainy Christmas eve. So maybe the house
really is more quiet -- there's still traffic on Lombard and Fulton,
but it could be a little less than usual (despite the extra noise
of tires on wet roads). Or maybe it's me that's quiet.
As I started the pancakes (waking Perrine briefly to let her lick
the fork with which I whisked the batter, which she appreciated),
I realized that part of the quiet was that I didn't have the radio
on, and I'd been listening to a pleasant selection of holiday music
on WRNR in the car. So I tuned in WRNR and the presence of music
did nothing to make the house feel any less quiet, so I
got to have my music and my special quietude at the same time. *whew*
I've got a lot to do. But I'm feeling too mellow to race around
doing it. So I'll get done what I get done, and hope to be sortakinda
prepared for tomorrow by the time tomorrow arrives, maybe pour myself
a glass of wine, maybe even read a book -- something I have
not slowed down enough for in too long a time -- and take this evening
as my religious contemplation part of the holiday. Tomorrow I'll be
at the home of my brother's in-laws (where I've mentioned before I feel
quite comfortable), and that'll be really nice, but much less
quiet. At least not this kind of quiet. Rather
than try to shoehorn something like this into an already scheduled
day, I'll take it now, having found it by surprise. I still do have
some things I really have to do, including figuring out whether I'll
be going to my mother's house in Bowie before we all assemble in
Rockville tomorrow, and finding out whether my brother will be
bringing a guitar amplifier, but I'm going to try to devote most of
the rest of Christmas eve to thinking, enjoying my surroundings and
the company of my cat, writing on LiveJournal, reading, and playing
guitar (and maybe some mandolin and recorder). Peaceful things.
Maybe I can finally kick this sometimes-background-sometimes-main-event
headache that's been dogging me the past week.
I can think of things that would make this day even better --
if the cars on Fulton Ave. were just a little quieter, if I could
get WRNR in the office and/or bedroom, if my fireplace were
already restored so I could sit by a wood fire, if I had a glass
of Scotch I can't afford (Balvenie Portwood), if certain people
lived closer -- but all in all I can't actually complain
about this day, at least not the way I feel right now. I'll spend
more time away from the front of the house, I'll wander into the
kitchen when I want to hear a song or two, it's not cold enough to
need the warmth of a fire (the furnace isn't even on today),
I can make a glass of wine last as long as a glass of Scotch and it's
still a pleasant sensory experience, and I'll see some of the people
I want to see over the next few days (and try to figure out when to
see the others), so I think I'm in decent shape to enjoy the afternoon.
And basically, I don't get very many days that feel like this, so
it's a ball of goodness. I've got my Christmas lights plugged in in
the blue bedroom (I never take them down; I just had to plug them in)
for that Christmas mood. I never did set up the full-size artificial
tree (nor clear out the living room), but I moved the itty bitty tree
(about a foot tall) to the stereo in the front hall that currently
serves as a mail-and-keys table. (I took a photo of Perrine in front
of it last night, which I'll get developed someday.) So
officially I've decorated, so there. I finally feel
Christmassy. A little late for getting everything done that
I needed to start two or three weeks ago, but in plenty of time to
enjoy feeling like it's Christmas.
Joyeux Noël, tout mes amis!