Either that fibromyalgia related hyperacute hearing thing
is being bad today, or they're only permitting extra-loud
vehicles on Lombard St. today and somebody broke into my
house last night just to turn up the secret volume control
on the fluorescent light in the kitchen that buzzes. The
cars are bad enough, but when a bus starts moving after
having stopped for the trtaffic light, it feels like something
that tickles and hurts at the same time is being pushed
through my head from one side to the other. Oh ouch --
the next-door neighbour's front door just opened. That's
not a big sound; it's not supposed to make me wince.
It's the low frequencies that hurt the most today.
Police sirens don't hurt until they're pretty close,
but a badly tuned automobile exhaust hurts from some
distance. At least the evening too-loud-car-stereos
session is a few hours away yet.
I'm pretty sure it's the fibromyalgia, not a Very
Sneaky But Noisy Conspiracy. I had what would've been a
tiring weekend if I'd started it in good shape, but I was
feeling tired and unwell from the start, so getting through
it was that much more of a push. Now my body is complaining
pretty loudly. And I really need to go back to Bowie today
(hours ago, actually) to deal with car stuff. I'm not certain
it's going to happen.
Last night my brother remarked, "I wish it would just
snow already," which seemed a bit odd with the temperature
around 286 K (56 F, 13 C), but the air did smell
"like snow" despite the warmth. (It occurs to me that
"smells like snow" mostly means "smells like
impending/approaching snow" more than it smells
like snowfall. Sometimes it still smells like that while
the snow is falling, and sometimes it doesn't. Someday
I'll figure out exactly what it is we're smelling when we
use that phrase.)
Well today, I find myself thinking how nice it
would be to have a blanket of snow deadening the sounds
of city traffic and scaring some percentage of the drivers
off the roads for an afternoon. But with my luck I'd be
hearing folks spinning their tires at the stoplight ...
But even that might be better than the "udBOOMrattle"
of trucks hitting the bump on Fulton Ave. just past the
intersection, after catching the light green while going
a little more than the speed limit. Depending on the
style of truck and what it's carrying, that can sometimes
sound rather convincingly like a gunshot or a bomb.
There's a voice in my head telling me that since I
have things that need doing, I should "be responsible"
and force myself to get out and do those things no
matter how badly I'm feeling. But I'm not really sure
I should be behind the wheel of a motor vehicle right
now. I already noticed how my driving was different
last night, and I didn't feel this bad then. Not sure
what to do about that voice.