"When people are responsible for their own lives, and
their own happiness, they can be more free, healthier, and
actually able to GET that happiness." --
n0ire,
2004-01-08
Daphne Eftychia Arthur, guitarist+. Nov. 22nd, 2004.
"When people are responsible for their own lives, and
their own happiness, they can be more free, healthier, and
actually able to GET that happiness." --
n0ire,
2004-01-08
I looked down at the pot of burbling stuff on the stove as I stirred it, and thought, "it looks wrong and it still smells wrong ... why?" Then it dawned on me: I forgot the garlic. I forgot garlic? I must be less awake than I'd thought, and I was already aware of being not quite all here.
So I pried a clove off the garlic bulb, but then I thought, "Wait, I bought this how many days ago, and this is only the second clove I've used? Is the reason I've felt headachy and dizzy so much of the past few days just a garlic deficiency?" Come to think of it, could that have anything to do with the recent pattern of: feel hungry, get an idea for something to cook, cook it, sit down, look at it, wonder why I don't feel like eating?
While I'm making random observations: my cat seems to like canned veggies. Well really just the liquid they're packed in. If I open a can, she wants a sniff. She may accept and appear to enjoy a small piece of whatever vegetable is inside, though not a second one. What she really wants is to taste that slightly salty, vegetable-flavoured water, and in some cases to take a good long drink of it. Today she enjoyed a fair dollop of that thick fluid from a can of kidney beans. This after she'd already eaten as much of her own food as she eats in one sitting.
Today's breakfa ... ah, really late
brunch? ... is one of those things that'll probably sound
terribly odd but actually works pretty well -- the results
of a dizzy, 3/4 awake werecatfish reacting to the first
ingredients to cross my field of view and trying to decide
what else I was in the mood to combine with those.
( details for the curious )
(Thinking back to various conversations with various people over the years, along the lines of, "You're combining what with what? Are you mad?" "Trust me, it'll work." "Hey, you're right, this is good. How did you know to do that?" "I don't know how I knew, I just knew." And for the record, the trick to the coffee when I use it is (usually) to use too little for anyone to detect coffee-flavour, but enough to alter how other flavours interact with each other. You can use maple in people-look-at-you-funny ways similarly, causing "how did you do that?" changes to the ways other flavours balance one another.)
Anyhow ... frustrated with pain/dizziness/fatigue 'cause
despite a few productive days last week and managing to
chase a few delayed LJ entries out of my head and onto the
screen, I'm not managing to do a lot of what I need or want
to be doing. Thanksgiving is almost here (I just got word
on the family plans for that -- they're what I expected and
now I have details), and Darkover (I'm not quite prepared
and need to get that taken care of), and an unspecified
possibly-dinner with an out-of-town friend who'll be in
Maryland for about two days, and I'm suddenly noticing
just how late in the calendar it is and I haven't gotten out
to visit
anniemal in far longer than I'd like.
So with my body being a bit wonky, my current approach is to handle whatever I feel I can handle at any given time and just hope that by the time everything needs to be done I will have gotten to it, because I'm afraid that if I try to do everything in order of urgency, I'll just wipe myself out and not manage to do any of it. I'm trying to pace myself, but having trouble letting go of worrying about the pace.
Progress where I can manage it, I guess. Putting a computer in the green bedroom actually helps.