Did not read LJ much over the past few days; started
catching up this morning. I'm up to mid-Saturday on my
friends-page now. May or may not attempt the "ten things
you probably haven't done" meme later. Probably won't
remember who referred various pages currently sitting open
waiting for a link-sausage commpilation. Going to crash
now in hope of being awake and alert at 3LF tonight. Still
need to download tonight's television schedule and program
the VCR.
I really wish I had a mild stimulant I could use the
way ost other people seem to. That is, one that actually
worked as a stimulant on my body and didn't make me feel
completely craptastic. (Caffeine fails on the first count;
in large or frequent doses it also fails on the second.
Psedudoephederine fails rather spectacularly on the second
count.) Going to rehearsals feeling well enough to drive
but not really quite as awake as I'd like to be, trying to
pay attention despite feeling wobbly, wanting that little
pick-me-up to cross the mid-afternoon slump, trying to wake
up a little faster when I need to go someoplace in the
morning ... My only options, as far as I can tell, are to
try to stubborn my way through feeling worse and worse, or
to give up and go to sleep. I get the impression that
many other people can use coffee, tea, or cola to get just
enough chemical help to get over such hurdles (and a few
wind up completely wired on caffeine). Is it as nice -- or
at least as convenient -- as I imagine, to have such a tool
at one's disposal?
The closest I've come to being able to do that is using
sugar. And that's a pretty short-lived effect, and its
effectiveness depends very much on my eating schedule and
also the nature of the task I'm trying to accomplish. I
can eke out an extra hour or so of long-distance driving by
balancing chocolate against orange juice, but it doesn't do
as much good for writing, learning new music, coding, etc.