Yesterday was a start and stop and start and stop and start
and stop kind of day. Got started on getting moving, getting
ready, then needed a break, started moving again, faded out and
had an hour get away from me, took meds, waited for them to
take effect, got distracted, got organized, got tired again,
got my second wind, broke a nail (badly enough to require
emergency cyanoarylate action rather than just clipping it
off and saying a few naughty words), got moving again, worried
whether I really had enough spoons, finally got out the door.
Got to Balticon very late and things seemed to have already
started settling down for the night. Got to say hello to some
folks I see too seldom, and collect hugs -- it felt good to get
out and be social -- and spent a while making music with friends.
Got tired, came home while I could still drive safely, now
trying to decide whether I saved enough spoons to be up to
heading back up there for the rest of the afternoon, or if I
should stay in, watch the Indianapolis 500, and try to get
caught up on dreaded beaurocratic stuff. Or take a load of
laundry to my mother's house.
Took a cane with me last night. Felt silly part of the
time because I didn't feel like I needed it, but at other
times I was glad of the bit of extra support. And it wasn't
a simple matter of starting out not needing it and then getting
tired -- I went back and forth between feeling like it was
just another item to keep track of and actually using it and
having it feel like it helped. It does make managing a guitar
and the woodwinds case at the same time more tricky.
A few of the folks I ran into, I hadn't seen for several
years. (Also found myself pulling out songs and chord progressions
I hadn't played in several years. Not sure there's any
connection though.)
Got some thoughts about effects of different sets of
choices for gender on forms and surveys, and different
degrees of 'othering', inspired by a recent kerfuffle
I caught descriptions of after the main participant had
already flounced and deleted the community it all occurred
in. Will try to wrestle those into coherent form later,
but I should decide whether to try to get back to Balticon
before I dive into that.