"Up until the time I came out as trans, I increasingly performed femininity. I figured it's what I was, so I became more and more 'inyerface' about the fact that I was a woman, almost always wearing dresses and using a lot of makeup. I became almost a caricature of a woman with my shoes and my clothes and my eyeliner and my hair. I even began buying wigs, because my hair was never going to be long and luxurious Real Goddess hair. I was basically a drag queen in a cis woman's body.
"And then, one day, I realized that I was, in fact, performing something that I was not and never had been. [...]"
-- Alexander (Sascz) Herrmann (lothie), 2020-08-07 [it's short but there's more -- go have a quick read]