Δαφνη Ευτυχια Αρθουρος

So yesterday feels as though it didn't exist. Slept off and on (poorly but frequently) and felt exhausted and headachy all day. Still a headache day today too, and you'd think I'd have learned by now that the odds are against my being able to just wait out a headache these days. Despite feeling crappy all of yesterday, I didn't take anything (except ibuprofen around 23:00) because ... well because I still felt like part of the crappiness I was feeling was from all the caffeine that came with the codeine I took Saturday, and largely just because feeling so aware of how much stuff I took to get through Saturday I just didn't wanna take more. I still don't feel like I have a good idea how much it's reasonable to rely on medications -- how much is too much, how much avoiding it is stupid stubbornness vs. reasonable caution, how little is too little given how poorly I've been functioning on my own lately. Yeah, I've babbled about this before. No, I don't feel like I've really made progress in figuring it out yet.

So I'm at anniemal's a day longer than planned, and will down some lavender/basil tea and ibuprofen in a while and try to get home without theobromine and codeine and Ultram, to feed Perrine (and reassure her, and apologize for leaving her alone and bored), and go back to resting there to save up energy for 3LF rehearsal tomorrow night. Thus, not much to report other than hey, I'm still alive and I survived Saturday.

A conversation with syntonic_comma reminded me that I need to get around to writing up in an at least somewhat coherent manner my thoughts about the long-term sustainability as an economic model to build whole economies on in a finite world. So that folks with more economics clue than I've got can tell me where I'm wrong, or so we can get useful counter-memes circulating.