Once upon a time, I was special. I had a special talent and
resources that others found startling and useful.
There was a time, when I was much shorter than I am now, when
I was one of the people who seemed to know a lot of odd, eclectic
stuff. Not amazingly so most of the time, though my father and
one of his friends were impressed that whenever their
conversations in my presence turned to new developments in
science or technology, I would run off to my bedroom and reappear
seconds later holding an issue of Popular Science open to
an article on whatever interesting thing they'd been talking
about. But that wasn't as amazing as it seemed, and soon my
collection of back issues outstripped my ability to remember
dates and page numbers.
Later, in middle school and high school, I still had a rather
odd assortment of sometimes-obscure facts in my head, but wasn't
so unusual compared to my friends. (Admittedly, we were all a
bit unusual, but I didn't stand out in that regard.)
No, what made me special was a little later, when for many
years I was the person to ask random questions to, not because I
knew all the answers, but because I always knew somebody else
who did. I'd accumulated such a diverse, and diversely
educated (and diversely hobbied) collection of friends and
acquaintances, and knew enough of their interests and skills,
that I really could, for forty-nine out of fifty obscure-seeming
questions asked of me, phone or email someone I knew who would
either know the answer or know where to look it up. People were
frequently quite impressed.
My specialness started to fade sometime after a lot of my
friends wound up on the same mailing list. I got lazy; for a lot
of questions I could just "ask the list". (For some reason this
worked better than than on Usenet.) So could anybody else
who knew about the mailing list. So I only seemed special to
friends who didn't know a lot of people on that mailing list.
(Note that the same list remains useful in the same way a couple
of decades later (give or take a few years).)
Then came Archie. Archie (and Veronica, but I mostly just
used Archie) made it easier to find certain kinds of
things if you were a geek or sufficiently geeklike. And I
became a little less special still.
Then came the web. A curiosity at first, then "gee this would
be a really neat research tool if only more of what I was looking
for had already been put on it", then "wow, useful but still has
huge holes in it, but how do you find anything?" It was still
useful to know people who'd have the information I wanted
bookmarked, but I was a lot less special than I had been.
And then came search engines. And I was no longer
special at all. In fact, while I am decently skilled in
the use of search engines, I know several people who are able to
use them much more effectively than I do. Yeah, there are people
who don't think to "SFTW" right away, or who just aren't as good
at (or as comfortable with, even if they're otherwise clueful)
using search engines. And newbies to be taught. And the
occasional person around whom
heisenbugs seem to like to collect, resulting in glitchitude
that none of their friends experience, so they ask others for
help. But that just makes me "one of the millions of people who
can help with this", not special at all.
There are subjects I can teach better than a lot of other
people can, but lots of people are expert in something,
so that's not unusual. (I don't know whether the number of
subjects I can teach is unusual or not.) Sometimes I do my part
to contribute to the new order by writing a web page on something
I know about. When I meet someone who doesn't know the power of
the web, I can't maintain an artificial aura of specialness,
because my instinct is to teach them how to fish, not to hand
them a fish. So for the most part I'm back to just being
somebody with an odd collection of data in my skull, who gets
asked, "How/why do you know that?" every so often.
It was fun being special. The world is better off this way,
where so many more people can find answers themselves, but once
in a while I think back. And I remember what it was like to be
the one who knew where to find the answers. I don't need that,
but I'd be lying if I said I didn't enjoy it while it lasted.
(This is not a "woe is me" essay or fishing for egoboo,
though it's admittedly deliberately melodramatic. I do know I've
got other gifts, some of which are more significant than what I've
described here. It's just a musing on how things change and how
one's role can be changed as a result, and a reflection on one
thing that seemed like such a big deal once upon a time.)