Δαφνη Ευτυχια Αρθουρος

Not feeling well this week on multiple fronts. Didn't get to HCB rehearsal 'cause I didn't feel safe to drive that far; did make it to 3LF rehearsal but felt pretty crappy on the drive home. Managed to annoy/frighten one person by being hard to reach -- turned off phone ringer 'cause I wanted to sleep when I slept, and didn't want to deal with anyone/anything when awake, and wasn't coping with my email. Not keeping up with LJ either. Eventually realized that I was doing so badly at coping with my week that I should give myself a day off from fretting over how much of my to-do list isn't getting done. (First started ignoring mail and LJ because it felt like my to-do list was too long to "waste" time on those; then worrying about my to-do list started occupying too many cycles to leave time for doing any of my to-do list.) 'Course that means I really must get out and accomplish stuff in the morning.

So if I've seemed kind of absent, that's why. I'll get better.

I haven't figured out how much of this is the fibromyalgia, how much is migraine, how much is allergies, and how much is insomnia. Of course, I may never figure that out 'cause they're entangled: any of the others can cause the insomnia, which in turn makes the fibromyalgia and migraines worse. I've got a bunch of aches and pains that are almost certainly the fibro, and others that might be that or might be an injury, and I can't really tell. Not sure what's starting the headaches, and not sure which drugs are most apropriate for them, out of the ones I've got prescriptions for. Afraid to double-dose on the antihistamines because I've exceeded the cap on my prescription drug benefit for the policy-year (they're prescribed one per day, but the effects only last about ten hours). Not sure what's making my eyes feel wonky -- hoping it's "merely" the migraine or the allergies, and not some brand new problem. Little nervous about that.

Did manage to accomplish something so far this week. Copied the melody of "Verceppe" into ABC notation to print out copies for other members of 3LF and so that it'll be handy for when I try to write additional parts (I don't care for either of the arrangements I already had). Sewed a patch into my one remaining "pirate shirt", which had developed a new hole sometime during the last HCB performance. I'm wondering whether that shirt will survive the month -- the fabric I'm trying to stitch repairs in is pretty fragile. Added a few more quotes to the file my "Quote of the Day" script reads from. And I picked up the infrared wedding proofs (hoping to pick up the last of the colour proofs ten or twelve hours from now, at the other lab).

Picking up the IR photos was a bright spot. It's fun to get back a contact sheet of a roll of IR film, and peer at the images through a loupe, thinking, "Oh, that's a cool one," and trying to decide which to order prints of. But holding those prints in my hand the first time, well it's a much more intense "Oh wow that's a cool look" feeling than looking at the contacts. Eventually those pictures will become, "Oh yeah, I'm proud of that one," and I'll have to wait until the next time I get to use IR to experience the "Oh wow oh wow this is so cool tee hee look at this [evil laugh]" feeling again. (Yeah, giggle and evil laugh in the same breath -- it's that kind of feeling.) I like infrared. Kodak HIE with a red filter -- it's addictive, once you see the results. It helps that this lab does amazing things with my black-and-white prints. (Both of the labs I use are damned good, but I especially like what this one does with my black-and-whites.)

So picking up the 4x6 prints of the IR wedding photos was a mood lifter. Until how [expletive]ing physically tired I was caught up with me again and I had to go lie down.

(And I got to camera-geek with two of the folks there for a spell -- one being the really pretty one whom I'm not sure whether it's apropriate for me to flirt with.)