Δαφνη Ευτυχια Αρθουρος

anniemal talks about guarding my sleep and trying to take care of me when we're together (I can be frustrating to take care of, not because I don't want help, but because I so very much don't want to need taking-care-of ... and because I feel guilty about not being more fun); my feeling better after she'd been here a day or so is quite unlikely to have been mere coincidence. Alas, it only took a couple of days of pushing myself to deal with Things With Looming Deadlines to mess me up again. A couple more things to deal with (after some rest) and tomorrow's gig(s), and then I can try to get back on track in terms of sleep, energy, and pain-management. I did at least have the sense yesterday to not try to squeeze in one more thing I'd really wanted (but not absolutely needed) to get done.

You need to GET OVER THIS. For your own sake: recite the Serenity prayer and have the serenity to accept the things you cannot change. I have been there: not wanting Reality to be my reality. Result: made myself sicker for a longer period of time and created inappropriate situations as a result.

Please, please, please: accept yourself and accept the help you need to be as well as you can be. Yes, the situation sucks. Not one single one of us can change this about ourselves. Personally, I go by the adage: adapt of (feel like I want to) die. We all want to help you. Just as you can't play all the instruments and all the parts yourself, you just can do without help. I don't like it either. I never liked being this short, either.

If you can't do it for yourself, do it for those of us who love you and want the best for you.