From the television show The West Wing, in the episode "Take Out the Trash Day":
Karen Larsen (played by Liza Weil): Is that why you drank and took drugs?
Leo McGarry (played by John Spencer): I drank and took drugs 'cause I'm a drug addict and an alcoholic.
Karen Larsen: How long did it take you to get cured?
Leo McGarry: I'm not cured. You don't get cured. I haven't had a drink, or a pill, in six and a half years. Which isn't to say I won't have one tomorrow.
Karen Larsen: What would happen if you did?
Leo McGarry: I don't know. But probably a nightmare the likes of which both our fathers experienced, and me too.
Karen Larsen: And ... So after six and a half years you're still not allowed to have a drink?
Leo McGarry: The problem is that I don't want a drink. I want ten drinks.
Karen Larsen: Are things that bad?
Leo McGarry: No.
Karen Larsen: Then why?
Leo McGarry: 'Cause I'm an alcoholic.
Karen Larsen: I don't understand.
Leo McGarry: I know. It's okay, hardly anyone does. It's very hard to understand.
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I'm only just starting to realize how little -- despite what I learned from The West Wing and things I'd read before -- I understand about what alcoholism is like for the alcoholic. How differently alcohol effects different people.
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Earlier I heard an alcoholic refer to "Earth people" to describe non-alcoholics and how alien we are (when we talk about wanting one drink) to alcoholics. Or at least some alcoholics -- others in the room were nodding like they saw things the same way as the speaker. (I'm not used to being labelled as the one from this planet.) There's a lot that I thought I was starting to understand that I now see how far I am from really getting.
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Then, I'm making my way through the bar, saying my goodbyes, and a guy at the bar getting another round says "Hey Huey! Whaddya want?"
I said "I want to drive home without dying", and he laughed. Four is my magic number. As an old friend of mine says "Four is the most important number in mathematics, as is most often used in the phrase I'll have four beers."
My mother is still convinced that I'm an alcoholic. I realize that "I can stop anytime that I want" sounds like denial, and besides, I really can't. I didn't want to stop after four. ...but if my alternative is sleeping in my truck or dying in a firey ball of wreckage, I do.
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Of course, soon after Aaron Sorkin got fired for doing too many drugs...
Wow.