I've known you for years, and have read the above, and *still* don't understand your sexuality. Is OK; a.) I don't understand mine either, and b.) it becomes relevant if we're contemplating doing something sexual together, which is AFAIK not on anyone's immediate agenda. If you still play that way I'd still like to bop you over the head with a stick, but alas, logistics prohibit. And I don't *think* that counts as sexual anyway, even if phallic symbols *are* involved.
I have a mild envy of you re: your knowledge and experience with costume, dress, and such; I avoid closeting issues by being largely ignorant of appearance issues altogether and thus not visibly differentiated either from the 'norm' or from any other groups. Being able to express myself better -- in *any* manner, but specifically including and exemplifying these -- would make my own life richer. I suspect I would be a very poor person to practice with/on, however. About on a par with trying to fit an oversized arachnid for a prom gown.
I hope the trip goes both well and enjoyably, and that you manage to come home with good insights to share.
**HUGS**
I have a mild envy of you re: your knowledge and experience with costume, dress, and such; I avoid closeting issues by being largely ignorant of appearance issues altogether and thus not visibly differentiated either from the 'norm' or from any other groups. Being able to express myself better -- in *any* manner, but specifically including and exemplifying these -- would make my own life richer. I suspect I would be a very poor person to practice with/on, however. About on a par with trying to fit an oversized arachnid for a prom gown.
I hope the trip goes both well and enjoyably, and that you manage to come home with good insights to share.
*more hugs*,
Joel