I want to send you loads and loads of you-clothes that would somehow be a compromise with your mother. Unfortunately, they'd be hand-me-downs and I don't think my shoulders are as broad as yours. :(
Wishing you a good dark pen to counteract the eraser.
Beyond that, it occurred to me that dressing on the outside is not dressing on the inside. Wear some fabulous accessories, even if they're under your other clothes (a cute tank top, a frilly belt, something!). Carry a small artifact or item in your pocket that means something to you, your mother doesn't need to know and it will help you get through this.
If nothing else, remember this. I am also a girl. I wear pants and a gender neutalish shirt to work everyday. It doesn't make me less of a girl to wear these clothes. If you wear pants and a men's shirt, you are still a girl too, no matter what you look like or how you're presenting. No amount of costuming will make you over into something you aren't. If your mother believes she can closet you with clothes than she isn't seeing you at all. I hope your relatives can see through what you're wearing and know you as a person, because that is far more important than what your mother thinks you ought to be.
Besides, you are a fabulous person, and well worth knowing.
(no subject)
Wishing you a good dark pen to counteract the eraser.
(no subject)
Beyond that, it occurred to me that dressing on the outside is not dressing on the inside. Wear some fabulous accessories, even if they're under your other clothes (a cute tank top, a frilly belt, something!). Carry a small artifact or item in your pocket that means something to you, your mother doesn't need to know and it will help you get through this.
If nothing else, remember this. I am also a girl. I wear pants and a gender neutalish shirt to work everyday. It doesn't make me less of a girl to wear these clothes. If you wear pants and a men's shirt, you are still a girl too, no matter what you look like or how you're presenting. No amount of costuming will make you over into something you aren't. If your mother believes she can closet you with clothes than she isn't seeing you at all. I hope your relatives can see through what you're wearing and know you as a person, because that is far more important than what your mother thinks you ought to be.
Besides, you are a fabulous person, and well worth knowing.
*many hugs and a good hopes for your trip*