Odd to remember that it was tilted? I dunno ... it's funny what details stick, y'know?
He was pretty sure we were joking about the poison, but he wasn't absolutely sure, so he wouldn't touch the poster with bare skin.
And I wasn't really trying to live down the nice thing -- it's perfectly fine for other people to call me nice -- but I'm careful not to say it myself specifically so that I can continue to use that line after I've done something eeevil. ;-)
Actually, I never understood folks finding me scary (though I do understand not finding Ray scary. But apparently some folks really worried that I was dangerous in some nebulous, unspecified way. Confused the heck out of me.
I do have an admittedly more nebulous memory of the not touching of the poster. That's John for you: playing along, making you wonder is he playing or being 'for real?' I can't speak for others finding you scary. For me....it wasn't a bad scary exactly. Dangerous? No, perhaps unpredictable would fit better there. And that quality is attractive at the same time that it's scary/nerve-wracking. There was no darkness in him and there is in you (or was; don't know now.) Darkness isn't a bad thing. It's an element, an aspect, a source (for me a source of art, of bdsm, and, however strange this may seem, of compassion and empathy.) My own darkness feeds whatever it is in me that some people call intimidating. It's controlled now in a way that was impossible in my past. I don't fight its existence and I don't succumb to it. (If that makes any sense. Still in the #$%% fog.) Still reeling from earlier private exchange, too.
Re: Paranoid?
He was pretty sure we were joking about the poison, but he wasn't absolutely sure, so he wouldn't touch the poster with bare skin.
And I wasn't really trying to live down the nice thing -- it's perfectly fine for other people to call me nice -- but I'm careful not to say it myself specifically so that I can continue to use that line after I've done something eeevil. ;-)
Actually, I never understood folks finding me scary (though I do understand not finding Ray scary. But apparently some folks really worried that I was dangerous in some nebulous, unspecified way. Confused the heck out of me.
Scary
I can't speak for others finding you scary. For me....it wasn't a bad scary exactly. Dangerous? No, perhaps unpredictable would fit better there. And that quality is attractive at the same time that it's scary/nerve-wracking. There was no darkness in him and there is in you (or was; don't know now.)
Darkness isn't a bad thing. It's an element, an aspect, a source (for me a source of art, of bdsm, and, however strange this may seem, of compassion and empathy.)
My own darkness feeds whatever it is in me that some people call intimidating. It's controlled now in a way that was impossible in my past. I don't fight its existence and I don't succumb to it. (If that makes any sense. Still in the #$%% fog.) Still reeling from earlier private exchange, too.