I do have an admittedly more nebulous memory of the not touching of the poster. That's John for you: playing along, making you wonder is he playing or being 'for real?' I can't speak for others finding you scary. For me....it wasn't a bad scary exactly. Dangerous? No, perhaps unpredictable would fit better there. And that quality is attractive at the same time that it's scary/nerve-wracking. There was no darkness in him and there is in you (or was; don't know now.) Darkness isn't a bad thing. It's an element, an aspect, a source (for me a source of art, of bdsm, and, however strange this may seem, of compassion and empathy.) My own darkness feeds whatever it is in me that some people call intimidating. It's controlled now in a way that was impossible in my past. I don't fight its existence and I don't succumb to it. (If that makes any sense. Still in the #$%% fog.) Still reeling from earlier private exchange, too.
Scary
I can't speak for others finding you scary. For me....it wasn't a bad scary exactly. Dangerous? No, perhaps unpredictable would fit better there. And that quality is attractive at the same time that it's scary/nerve-wracking. There was no darkness in him and there is in you (or was; don't know now.)
Darkness isn't a bad thing. It's an element, an aspect, a source (for me a source of art, of bdsm, and, however strange this may seem, of compassion and empathy.)
My own darkness feeds whatever it is in me that some people call intimidating. It's controlled now in a way that was impossible in my past. I don't fight its existence and I don't succumb to it. (If that makes any sense. Still in the #$%% fog.) Still reeling from earlier private exchange, too.