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eftychia at 08:27am on 2004-04-04Woke up from an oddly disturbing dream, of which I only remembered fragments on waking.
The dream had to do with ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif){kind=small}
blumindy being a superhero,
making the world safe for kink and/or fighting spam. anniemal
and I were madly scrambling to prevent information about
blumindy's secret identity from falling into the wrong
hands. At some point the three of us were involved in surgery --
two of us operating on the third, but I don't remember which of us
was the patient. I do remember that the surgery was unnaturally
tidy. Blood stayed in convenient areas instead of trying to flow
messily, and the parts fit together more like a three dimensional
puzzle or a machine than what I remember of the insides of vertebrates
from doing dissections in high school. The surgery involved a silver,
cylindrical organ or device with rounded ends, low in the right side
of the abdomen. The colour, but not the shape, of a squid's ink
sac.
The odd part is that I have no idea which part of it was
disturbing, only that I woke feeling very disturbed
by some aspect of it. I was also trembling, but that went on
long enough that I'm not sure it was because of the dream, or
was itself what woke me. I felt like the world was slightly
tilted, and my guts were in crooked. Now that I've been awake
a little while, the feeling that the world is askew has faded,
but my gut still feels funny. Maybe I was the patient in the
dream? anniemal said she thought she heard me
mumble something about being pregnant, so perhaps that was a
part of the dream I don't remember.
I woke after only two hours of sleep (I was short on sleep yesterday as well, not good for someone with fibromyalgia, but it happens far too often), at about the time the Ultram and ibuprofen I took before going to bed would be wearing off. (#include "why-I-want-time-release-Ultram.txt") So this is likely related to the workout my body got on stage last night.
Wow......a superhero
I had *2* rather long conversations about kink very late in the day/night yesterday (nothing about spam.) The gist of the longer of the 2 was my general "fuck-you" attitude and how I refuse to be concerned with what other people think. As a main example, I stated that I'd proudly go anywhere with you and anyone who commented or didn't like your.....you-ness, would be subject to a pop in the nose from me. The person conversing with me has closet issues and we talked about my career and my (new and unfortunate) need for discretion. We talked about the freedom to be who we are and I basically promoted within him the cultivation of my aforementioned "fuck-you" attitude. He's having some life-crisis issues and needed the uplift, the general acceptance of who he is. I think acceptance and love for who a person genuinely is, is my "superpower." (Didn't realize that I had one :)
I've been classified as "weird" for as long as I can remember and if those doing the classifying are "normal" well, then they're not only right but I thank them for the compliment.
Later, after this conversation, which was with my dear pain-slut, my dear submissive gentlechild and escort took me to a private club. It's one well-known in certain circles in this city.
It has several lovely scene rooms and a massive amount of equipment. I saw several intoxicating scenes including one of paddling/flogging followed by sensory immersion (one of my favs) with ice, oil, and hot wax. I saw much of an auction of Doms/subs/others,; a swing & caging scene; bullwhipping; a bit of suspension-asphyxiation; a lot of socializing; and had an intro-quiz on myself by the fibro-afflicted owner.
If I may hazard a guess, the dream "surgery" may possibly be the translation your mind is making of me being sick and in the ER on Friday? Right area of the body in your imagination. [About the right amount of bloodiness, too.]
You know what I've said to you previously about my identity and the gentle alteration of it.....
That you and Anniemal would protect it and me....warms and amazes me. Thanks. I'll be your superhero anytime. *hug power*
Surgery dream