Δαφνη Ευτυχια Αρθουρος

A thought: Something which may help you is to declare two days a week (say, Wed and Sat) "Rest Days" on which you don't allow yourself, as a matter of policy, to make any plans or commitments. If you find yourself with extra spoons on those days, great, you can spontaneously do anything you want (though you have a responsibility to rest enough to have spoons through your next rest day). Just no planning or responsibilities those days.

It looks, from reading your journal, that you push yourself as hard as you can, right to collapse, and the moment you get even a single spoon, you're out there trying to spend not only that spoon, but a future spoon or two or three on credit. You don't seem to give yourself time to amass spoons.

And, yea, verily that is a pattern I recognize from personal experience. That's my own personal flavor of stupidity. I'm not working with spoons, I'm dealing with RSIs, and "spend arm", but I did the exact same behavior: "Oh, the pain's down a notch so I'll go spend the day at the computer and then go to a jam session." Me fking brilliant.

I've learned (reluctantly, and not too thoroughly) that rest needs to be scheduled as a priority. Feel free to quote this back at me in the coming weeks. :/