I have not been in your place, but my strong impression is that your conflicting reactions are normal. If there's a way for you to talk with a pro about them, that might help speed up the recovery.
And the old "I'm supposed to be both tough enough to be able to find the shortcuts through psychological trauma" meme isn't helping, of course.
You understand that this meme is bullshit, right? We're fragile human beings, not robots. The difference is that we have minds and souls. Those can be damaged just as easily as our bodies can be.
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And the old "I'm supposed to be both tough enough to be able to find the shortcuts through psychological trauma" meme isn't helping, of course.
You understand that this meme is bullshit, right? We're fragile human beings, not robots. The difference is that we have minds and souls. Those can be damaged just as easily as our bodies can be.