One of the reasons you aren't able to take short-cuts in your emotional healing is that you're in a new neighborhood. You haven't had to learn your way around it, so your usually tricks aren't working.
The experience you're having with obsessively revisiting the experience in your mind is, as many have mentioned, common. There's a reason it's a common reaction to being assaulted.
It's an emotional defense mechanism.
It is as if your brain had said, "Woah, D'Glenn is not ready to deal with some of the emotional reactions to this. So we're going to distract the consciousness with a different emotional reaction, one which is easier to handle."
The short cut is cutting through the chase and confronting the repressed emotions and processing them.
Now, I could tell you what they are. But I don't go around ripping people's bandages off their wounds, without their permission. And I know you like figuring things out for yourself.
So what do you want? Do you want to figure it out for yourself -- it's best that way, and I think this is well within your grasp? Do you want me to tell you? Do you want to wait until you're a bit further from the experience, so you might be in a stronger place to handle it?
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The experience you're having with obsessively revisiting the experience in your mind is, as many have mentioned, common. There's a reason it's a common reaction to being assaulted.
It's an emotional defense mechanism.
It is as if your brain had said, "Woah, D'Glenn is not ready to deal with some of the emotional reactions to this. So we're going to distract the consciousness with a different emotional reaction, one which is easier to handle."
The short cut is cutting through the chase and confronting the repressed emotions and processing them.
Now, I could tell you what they are. But I don't go around ripping people's bandages off their wounds, without their permission. And I know you like figuring things out for yourself.
So what do you want? Do you want to figure it out for yourself -- it's best that way, and I think this is well within your grasp? Do you want me to tell you? Do you want to wait until you're a bit further from the experience, so you might be in a stronger place to handle it?